The Beginning
I was born in Mira Mesa, a suburb of San Diego, CA on October 10, 1987. I was born 4 weeks premature. My parents married less than a month after that. We then moved between Long Beach and Chula Vista, another San Diego suburb, for the next 3 years. My brother was born February 22, 1990. We then moved to Gurnee, Illinoise in the fall of 1991, and six months later, we moved to Kenosha, Wisconsin, in the same house I've lived in ever since.

My dad was in the Navy, which is why we kept moving through CA, until he was stationed in Wisconsin. He was then discharged, after his knee became a problem. He messed up his knee in a motorcycle accident as a child. My mom was a secretary, mostly working for the Navy also, but soon turned to nursing when we moved here. My mom was a secretary for the Navy too, until my dad was discharged. After that, she became a house nurse, and is currently enrolled at University of Wisconsin: Parkside, to become an RN.

My dad is a huge drinker. He's one of those "nice" drunks, and he's a complete asshole when he's sober. I hate the fact that I like him better drunk. He's really cruel, and he talks down to me, and I always feel like shit. And with my brother, they always fight, and there's cops at my house all the time for some reason or another. My mom doesn't do shit. She still acts like she's 5, she just sits there, screams and crys, and the next day, acts like nothing happens.

Religion
I really don't follow a religion. I'm very open-minded when it comes to things. I utterly hate rasicm of any form, especially when people don't know shit about what their saying. I don't see the point in hating people based on color, size, sexual orientation, or religious/politcal views. It's just dumb.

School
I'm just finishing my last year at Bradford High School. In the fall, I will be attending University of Wisconsin - Parkside. I have a 3.5 GPA, and I think I'm in the National Honor Society. I don't do clubs, and I don't do sports.

Pets
As of now, my family has a german-shepard/husky mix female dog, who's hyper as all get out. Her name is Tasha. Last september, I brought home a stray kitten, who I named Oreo. Both of them used to hate each other, but now they're decent. In the past, I've had 3 dogs, and 3 cats. The first dog bit my brother, the second one was too wild, the third one bit a neighbord. The first cat was too sick, and 2 of the cats were our friends, but we took care of them. Then they moved outta town, and gave them to the humane society.

Teen Years
'Twas crazy. Between elementary and middle school, I gained so much weight from eating. I don't do well with change.. I made friends easily though, but it was harder to keep them. My best friends had to have been Allison, Kim, and Annika throughout middle school. Then I met lauren, and we became bestest buddies, and ruled. 9th grade flew by too quick. I met alot of people who I'm still friends with today. Also, I started losing weight, due to changing my eating and participating in gym.

10th grade had to have been the hardest on me. I don't exactly know how come, but I became really depressed. I started cutting myself to try and stop the stress and pain i was feeling. I went on like that for almost a year. During that time, I had a bigass blowout with Lauren, over her damned boyfriend, and i withdrew myself from alot of activities and people. And someone I knew killed themselves, which really didn't help.

This past summer, thanks to my friends, I forced myself out of all that, and started hanging out with friends again. Me and Lauren started talking again, and I started hanging out with Angel. I met him during 10th grade English, but we didn't really hang out much, maybe once or twice, before summer. And I had a crush on him. We hung out a few times during the summer, and spent hours talking on the phone. I lost my virginity to him as well. But he wasn't such a great influence. He's the one who got me to try xanax, adderall, and caffeine pills. Then I started smoking pot with Julya, and with Angel as well. And Lauren joined in on the not-so-drug-free fun spree.

At the end of summer, Lauren's parents decided to move. 4 hours away. Considering all we've been through, it broke our heart, and I still have yet to see her again. After my main point of amusement, aka Lauren, disappeared, I finally got a job, and hung out with other people. At this point, I've started to hang out with Angel alot more. I start smoking and popping pills, but Angel, not wanting to fuck me up, told me to stop. And so I did. I started getting depressed again, mostly because of some family shit, school, lack of Lauren, and my fucked up relationship with Angel. We were basically friends-with-benefits, but I was stresing out too much with it.

But again, I got over it. I saved up enough money for my first car. Then I got into a car accident in less than a month. But it was TOTALLY NOT MY FAULT. I was legally parked on the side of the road. Fucking idiots were driving in the cur b lane. Then I spent the next two months working hard in school, working as much as possible at my job, and being with Angel. Then, during Spring Break, in mid-march, I bought my second car, that I have now.

Things with Angel have changed. After I made out with a guy, Angel realized that he really liked me more than he said he did. Which was as nothing more than a friend. Right now, we're going out, and it's great. I've been working alot as well, and have been keeping up my grades in school. Things are really good for me now.

Outside
I'm about 5'6" with brown eyes, and my hair is naturally auburn, and curly. After a few years of dying it dark red, I've been letting it grow out, and it's a medium brown. I usually wear it straight, when I have the time, or in a pony tail. I don't have any piercings, yet, though I'm planning on getting my tongue, or something, done.

Physically, I'm out of shape. But I'm healthier than I used to be. I've lost a lot of weight since freshman year, thank god. My self image is alot better than it used to be. I'm not a size 2, but it's doesn't change me one bit. I am working on my body a bit more, though.

Inside
Moody as all get out. I try to keep happy, but my moods like to get the best of me. I have a horrible temper, and I tend to get very jealous. But it fortuneately doesn't last long at all, and I'm alot happier than a year ago. People who don't know me might consider me apathetic, but that's because I don't like showing emotion to people I don't trust.

i've got a likeable personality, despite tending to be apathetic. I make friends quickly, though I usually get annoyed with people after awhile. If I done, then they are there to stay. To all my friends, I'm very loyal, and I trusting. I hate seeing my friends sad, so I always try to be there for them when they need someone to talk to, or someone to bitch at. Most people like that they don't feel like I'm judging them when they say something, and that they feel like they can pour their hearts out without me telling everyone else their secrets.

Hobbies
I love web designing, and talking on the phone. I'm always on the phone. If I'm not on the phone, I'm driving. I'm usually with Angel, going all across town, or just chilling at his/my house.

And if I'm not doing any of that, I'm at work. Or asleep. Alas, not that amusing. But I enjoy it.

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